• On So & So On

    In the beginning
    it was so
    and so on

    Soon sown
    then three
    to party

    Grown from seed
    and so on
    the invitations.

    So the old fisherman
    though years since his
    boat out on the water
    still sold more fish
    than he caught
    and when asked
    by the economist
    how this could be so
    said so few are called
    but many who so choose.

  • To the Lighthouse

    It was not a real
    lighthouse tho near
    the ocean in Hermosa
    and hornful of warns

    Sunday afternoons free
    we listened to hot jazz
    players coming together
    & going this way & that

    And nights were cats
    in the lot out back
    came for scraps
    a tuba sized cook

    tossed evenings we
    could afford only
    one drink and out
    for a walk on the pier

    in a fog or clear breeze
    round midnight round
    about midnight waves
    breaking into ivory

    silk blouses blowing
    below to the empty
    beach behind us
    and Pier Avenue

    and to The Lighthouse
    its beacon leading
    light sinking in the must
    of music business.



  • On Symbols

    Symbols attract as well as repel, signal good or evil, nearness or farness. Roadside signs first used to advertise products, cigarettes or shampoos, evolve to say something abstract: Jesus Saves. A symbol is a belief.

    An abandoned roadside sign, the billboard, its wooden legs leaning askew, its paper layered panel weather faded, becomes a symbol of change, of nostalgia, its country road long ago bypassed by an interstate highway, its message no longer visible or intelligible to the passing strangers, one of whom, at a quick glance, scratches his head and wants to shower or reaching into the glove box finds the pack empty and begins to watch for a filling station, motel, or cafe to appear on the horizon.

    A series of signs spaced along the side of a road at planned intervals may form pieces connected to frame a storyline, like a sentence connects words to form a complete thought. The symbols pass fast and furiously. The whole edifice constructed by some outlier becomes part of the local landscape. In town, the abandoned grade school is converted to a micro brewery and bed and breakfast inn. The old one room church is now a real estate office.

    The romanticist, who loves symbols, is a quick change artist who substitutes his own for the ones he was given:

    “It is always, as in Wordsworth, the individual sensibility, or, as in Byron, the individual will, with which the Romantic poet is preoccupied; and he has invented a new language for the expression of its mystery, its conflict and confusion. The arena of literature has been transferred from the universe conceived as a machine, from society conceived as an organization, to the individual soul.”

    Edmund Wilson, “Axel’s Castle: A Study in the Imaginative Literature of 1870-1930,” Scribner, 1931.

    That soul comes and goes like the moon, now new, now waning, and the reader might be caught in the moon illusion, where symbols appear larger when closer to the tree line, where a tree is traded for shade or a home.

    In today’s political jargon, as writ large in media, classicism is conservative, romanticism liberal, the symbols of the conservative fixed and permanent, those of the romantic fluid and ambiguous:

    “Blake had already contradicted contemptuously the physical theory of the eighteenth century. And to Wordsworth, the countryside of his boyhood meant neither agriculture nor neo-classic idylls, but a light never seen on land or sea. When the poet looked into his own soul, he beheld something which did not seem to him reducible to a set of principles of human nature.”

    same as above

    The classicist looks at the billboard and sees an advertisement upon the landscape; the romantic looks at the billboard and sees an advertisement as part of the landscape:

    There is no real dualism, says Whitehead, between external lakes and hills, on the one hand, and personal feelings, on the other: human feelings and inanimate objects are interdependent and developing together in some fashion of which our traditional notions of laws of cause and effect, of dualities of mind and matter or of body and soul, can give us no true idea.

    same as above

    And, as science advances, the soul retreats. It’s difficult if not impossible to register and catalog the movement of the soul:

    “Every feeling or sensation we have, every moment of consciousness, is different from every other; and it is, in consequence, impossible to render our sensations as we actually experience them through the conventional and universal language of ordinary literature. Each poet has his unique personality; each of his moments has its special tone, its special combination of elements. And it is the poet’s task to find, to invent, the special language which will alone be capable of expressing his personality and feelings. Such a language must make use of symbols: what is so special, so fleeting and so vague cannot be conveyed by direct statement or description, but only by a succession of words, of images, which will serve to suggest it to the reader. The Symbolists themselves, full of the idea of producing with poetry effects like those of music, tended to think of these images as possessing an abstract value like musical notes and chords. But the words of our speech are not musical notation, and what the symbols of Symbolism really were, were metaphors detached from their subjects – for one cannot, beyond a certain point, in poetry, merely enjoy color and sound for their own sake: one has to guess what the images are being applied to. And Symbolism may be defined as an attempt by carefully studied means – a complicated association of ideas represented by a medley of metaphors – to communicate personal feelings.

    same as above

    The classicist wants to be sure of things, and has a fixed point of view, wants to demolish the target; the romantic lives with variable viewpoints, ambiguity – it’s enough to get close. The symbols of the classicist do not suggest beyond convention, but can only denote. In any case, neither seems satisfied with what unwritten laws they develop. A tree at an oasis to a desert nomad is not the same tree as the one under which the family on vacation parks its recreational vehicle in the state forest campground, not to mention the one in the wilderness no human has ever seen. And, “A fool sees not the same tree that a wise man sees,” Blake says in “The Marriage of Heaven and Hell.”

    Or a billboard, for that matter.

  • The Hottest Day

    Looking about for something cool to read,
    for today is scheduled to be the hottest day,
    and I recalled Hermann Hesse’s “Siddhartha,”
    its beginning lines:

    “In the shade of the house, in the sunshine of the riverbank near the boats, in the shade of the Sal-wood forest, in the shade of the fig tree is where Siddhartha grew up, the handsome son of the Brahman, the young falcon, together with his friend Govinda, son of a Brahman. The sun tanned his light shoulders by the banks of the river when bathing, performing the sacred ablutions, the sacred offerings. In the mango grove, shade poured into his black eyes, when playing as a boy, when his mother sang, when the sacred offerings were made, when his father, the scholar, taught him, when the wise men talked.”

    Siddhartha, Hermann Hesse, 1922

    Sounds cool, but Siddhartha,
    as we now know,
    had a long row to hoe
    before attaining coolness.

    Siddhartha might have been a member
    of what Gertrude Stein named
    “a lost generation”:

    “One generation passeth away, and another generation cometh; but the earth abideth forever… The sun also ariseth, and the sun goeth down, and hasteth to the place where he arose… The wind goeth toward the south, and turneth about unto the north; it whirleth about continually, and the wind returneth again according to his circuits…. All the rivers run into the sea; yet the sea is not full; unto the place from whence the rivers come, thither they return again.”

    Ecclesiastes, King James Version

    The wise men in my youth
    would have near
    a cool drinking beer
    to go with the flow.

    Honeydew beach
    and rollicking surf
    in the morning
    chores in the afternoon
    sit out with the family
    in the evening
    when the sun goes down
    in the shade of the olive
    tree, the Chinese Elm
    and the three carob trees.

    Meanwhile, waiting for rain,
    Walt Whitman:

    And who art thou? said I to the soft-falling shower,
    Which, strange to tell, gave me an answer, as here translated:
    I am the Poem of Earth, said the voice of the rain,
    Eternal I rise impalpable out of the land and the bottomless sea,
    Upward to heaven, whence, vaguely form’d, altogether changed,
    and yet the same,
    I descend to lave the drouths, atomies, dust-layers of the globe,
    And all that in them without me were seeds only, latent, unborn;
    And forever, by day and night, I give back life to my own
    origin, and make pure and beautify it;
    (For song, issuing from its birth-place, after fulfilment, wandering,
    Reck’d or unreck’d. duly with love returns.)

    The Voice of the Rain, “Sands at Seventy,” Walt Whitman

    Of course, “the voice of the rain” in places today
    is not so quiet and “soft-falling,”
    but seems on the attack;
    something absurd
    has been disturbed.

    Likewise, the blue sky
    and this week’s yellow period
    we for months awaited
    comes down today
    like a cast iron lid
    where we sit
    like a cake
    rising
    in an oven.

  • Changing Fonts

    Sometimes, mornings, sitting at the laptop, waiting for the groundwater to rise, words to develop, appear, as in a photographer’s darkroom bath, I play around backstage in the blog with fonts and settings and such as are available via the WordPress setup. The urge comes similar to that of wanting to move the furniture around in one’s pad, or rearrange the Picasso or Matisse paintings dotting the walls. Or move the plants around. I would tell you all how this is done (i.e. changing fonts), but I don’t want to be responsible for anyone crashing their blog and watching nine years of exceptional poetry or original street pics washed down the drain. And I’m not an expert, just an experimenter.

    Anyway, you perspicacious readers with good eyes for this sort of thing might have noticed a number of changing fonts experiments this morning here at the The Coming of the Toads. And, effective with this post, I’ve switched the entire blog to new fonts: Playfair Display for the Heading Font and Fira Sans for the Base Font.

    Other fonts I played around with this morning include EB Garamond, which I thought elegant but too light and tight, and Space Mono / Roboto, which I found fun and modern in a way one might be nostalgic for comics from the 1950’s. I thought Bodoni Moda interesting. But in the end, for now, anyway, I settled on changing sitewide to the Playfair Display and Fira Sans fonts. These are available via Global Styles in WordPress – at least in this, the “Seedlet” theme, they are available.

    While my primary concern when it comes to choosing fonts is to find something simply easy on the eyes, I want the type to attract the reader without calling too much attention to itself. At the same time, I find the historical background of font development interesting. For example, looking up Fira typeface in Wiki, I found this:

    “With the name Fira, Mozilla wanted to communicate the concepts of fire, light and joy but in a language agnostic way (sic) to signal the project’s global nature.”

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fira_(typeface)

    Joy! And not only that, but I found that Fira Sans is used by the governments of both New Zealand and Iceland – their “font of choice,” according to the Wiki page I consulted. Ok, ok – if it’s good enough for them…

    Again, I’m not an expert, of much of anything, let alone fonts, but if one is to spend as much time as I do writing, typing, blogging, “publishing” (as it were), drawing, cartooning, doodling, it seems inevitable one’s interests will or might or should include typeface and type design. There you have it.

    Display font derives from sign making, text typically larger than the text found in the body of what’s printed. It seems most display fonts were originally hand drawn. Of Playfair Display, I found that it’s a font created by one Claus Eggers Sørensen. Who knew?

    One consideration choosing fonts and in fact doing anything on the blog these days, is the fact that readers are using all kinds of devices – desktops, laptops, tablets, phones – to access and read blog posts. So you want something that will lend itself to a variety of formats and devices. What you see is not always what you get.

    The Coming of the Toads blog, which dates posts at least monthly from 2007, and which began as a kind of addendum to adjunct activity, has gone through a number of changes in “theme” (template) design over the years. (Has anyone noticed?) Currently, the blog uses a “minimalist” design open to the WordPress block formatting. This seems for now a good fit for the drift to ever more poetry posting I’ve been lately most interested in doing.

  • After the Fall

    After the fall before it was all
    over knowing all along wrong
    from the start belief belittled
    after awhile persistence paid
    well and the interlude did not
    feel like a slump who sat still
    felt trapped and everyone all
    worked overtime all the time
    along the line here and there
    a smile a smell a breeze even
    if the windows wouldn’t open
    not there not in that building
    which like a fortress ship full
    of pink dresses tight collared
    pinched and pitched swollen
    with wariness almost fearful
    slow not quite sure diagnosis
    acute nervousness jim-jams
    and on pajama day all asked
    who sits here without benefit
    of knick-knacks pics of all the
    kids the stout spouse keeping
    house and at the all sporting
    game asked in all seriousness
    why do you all do what you
    do and all could answer the
    question without already all
    knowing the answer plainly
    clearly concisely in the land
    of milk and honey hidden
    behind partitions attached
    to all the others in confetti
    filled aisles tolerable hours
    what a waste they all said
    their baskets full of bread
    but in the end the trends
    the lines of best fit all fell
    it was all about math all
    along days numbered fell
    they all fell and in falling
    looked for a place to land
    without breaking in pieces
    some fell up some fell down
    the ones who often played
    the clown cried and claimed
    all fell and all broke in the
    office of the one doomed
    it was like after a war all
    fallen astrew forced hands
    held together with screws.

  • Nine Pieces of Very Short Flash Fiction

    A Victorian Family

    Once upon a time, in a three story house full of dark rooms full of furniture and footsteps, and then there were none.

    Inside Out

    In the beginning the end already coming and who could stop it apparently will not.

    Nostalgia

    In the mid 1950’s, the Young family moved to California, and come the turn of the century, they had all transferred out.

    Joseph K.

    With his English degree from Yale, Joseph K. procured a job as an underwriter in a huge banking firm headquartered in Manhattan, where he rose through the ranks to write a mission statement about which he one day was questioned.

    The Big City

    She had no family, a miserable job that paid measly, and only a few friends who like her mistrusted men.

    The Brick Pulled from the Wall

    From the playground he threw a baseball through the window of a confessional and thought, perfect, I’ll confess and no one will ever know.

    A Longer Work

    After writing a thousand pieces of flash fiction, none of which were accepted for publication anywhere, it came to him he might as well start writing a long novel.

    Metamorphosis

    He lost his putter, stopped mowing the grass, let the weeds grow, and the butterflies returned to suburbia.

    Whipped Cream & Cherries

    One day, he passed the dive bar on the corner and entered the ice cream parlour next door, where he met his future wife filling sugar cones for a birthday party.

  • Come, eschew the myth

    Come, eschew the myth
    of Dionysus,
    the cafe with jazz aged
    aperitif,
    give me ice cream
    to stimulate my spirits,
    and a parlour guitar,
    not bitter liqueur,
    for my digestif.

    Yes, let Bacchus
    and his buddies
    revel with the devil,
    give me chocolate
    raspberry swirl.

    Don’t say, “Out of peaches
    ‘n cream, try a frosty
    fruity pilsner.”
    Ok, bait and switch,
    if you can add a scoop,
    please, and make it float.

    The evening passes slowly
    amidst dark cans clatched
    down the dry alley where
    sleeps Suzy with Sobrius.

  • Wait!

    Who waits for Godot
    (rhymes with da dough)
    wants an oppo
    waiting for the doe
    in the dell –
    won’t you wait with me?

    Waiting for Godot
    for Larry, Moe, & Curly Joe
    for onomatopoeia to blow
    its toupee into the tree
    on a country road.

    Waiting for snow
    to cover the fallen
    waiting for the obvious
    and the obscure.

    Waiting for a
    tree to grow
    pi to round
    oh even
    waiting for you.

  • Melancholy

    I don’t know if kids are still made
    to take them, the Iowa Tests,
    of course I could look it up,
    not beyond googling, but Wiki
    has no memory of this echo.

    I was in the 8th grade, yellow
    #2 black bile pencil at the ready,
    desk cleared, humors silent.
    This one was a vocabulary test,
    and one word from it sticks

    in memory still: melancholy.
    Four choices, and I pick
    happy, reasoning based
    solely on sound – I thought
    the tinkling mellow, jolly

    joyful
    and cock-a-hooped
    filled the circle C and
    moved to the next word.
    Later, I happened to ask

    Sister Mary what it meant,
    melancholy, and whadayaknow,
    I was veracious
    and ran out to recess
    happy as a clam at high tide.

  • Drowning Amid Waves

    That swimmer Stevie Smith mentioned
    the one “not waving but drowning”
    off Muscle Beach that cold morning
    still the iron ones sweating
    considered neither waving nor drowning
    men but lifting they carried one another.

    He was too far out for his cries
    to be heard and from under their
    umbrellas they waved back at him,
    but he wasn’t waving, Stevie said,
    he was drowning, but how did Stevie
    know – ah! the lifeguard poet

    who drowning waves not to be
    saved but to say here I am
    and goodbye, goodbye
    my loves goodbye
    I am too far out for you to hear this
    this wave to all along the shoreline.