Category: Poetry

  • Banana Yellow Sunrise

    Banana Yellow Sunrise

    About fell asleep waiting on doctor to come
    under beguiling wall poster of limbic system.

    “I’m going to give you three words, and I’ll ask
    for them back before we’re done.”

    I repeated each word after her:
    yellow – yellow; banana – banana;

    sunrise – sunrise. Then she moved
    for the cuff and I rolled up my sleeve

    and she asked how Susan was doing.
    Sunsee, sunsaw, I thought about

    Buckminster Fuller’s neologisms,
    and also considered the possibility

    the doctor had given me not three
    but four words, sunrise compound,

    two words in one meaning. There
    was a time I might have discussed

    this with her, but no more. I felt
    my arm swell as the cuff tightened.

    Had I fallen in the last year? No,
    not that I could recall, small smile.

    Trying to keep her three words
    top of mind, I inverted them:

    banana yellow sunshine, locking
    them together as a descriptive

    phrase, cleverly reducing work
    from three chores to one.

    How many beers did I drink
    in a week’s time? Finally, she asked

    for the three words back,
    catching me off guard.

    She sat quite close to me,
    her face to mine, and I saw

    her nonplussed, and I knew
    something was wrong.

    As I left her office to go down
    to the lab to leave some blood,

    I thought about the difference
    between sunrise and sunshine,

    sunshine like adding a 7th
    to a sunrise triad.






  • Untitled and Unfinished

    The tall fall fires out west follow
    the humongous hurricanes blowing
    across the headline news, shooting
    embers across the dance floor valley,
    licking into the canyon columns
    of textual innuendos of who
    belongs here and who doesn’t.

    The wind and rain and flickering
    flames know no such distinctions.
    All belong to the sky and forests,
    to the ocean, mountains, and deserts,
    to one another embracing bumper
    to bumper against the noise unleashed
    updating itself every second breath.

    Some too old to dance seem left behind.
    You can’t fight a hurricane like you can
    a fire. The new news is the new normal,
    seven by twenty-four and minute by
    minute. Still, all we know of the missing
    and the ones still on the road is that
    they are missing and still on the road.

    “Oh, God. Oh, Mother,” the Civil War
    soldier cried as he burnt up. Why,
    when a single bullet would have sufficed?
    The trees are drying and the ground sinking.
    Will all not sunk into the sea burn
    into the sky? The caravans continue
    heel to toe to higher and cooler ground.

    And that’s the way it is.

  • Fall Calendar

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  • Cyberpunk

    Round ears curl silver coils of sounds,
    across nose stands glass bridge in worm-fog,
    always under construction.

    Every sense a degree, and digression, and distraction.

    This is technology:
    rubber sneakers, cotton threads,
    titanium screw implants capped
    with fool’s gold.

    Then that hardened heart
    lumbering loose without nails
    full of sloth a snail’s shake
    ebbs & flows fickling & flicking
    comes & goes riding the tides
    like a pickle on smooth ocean
    swells rising then falling
    oily muscle lifting and dropping
    off to sleep, surly salty
    heart pickled in hope chest,
    just like a human heart.

  • Three Poem Treats

    3

    If I write the poem in my heart
    things fall apart, I fall apart
    nocentior can hold
    I wrote this panning for gold.

    2

    If I forget who I am
    maybe I’ll be Sam I am
    until it comes back to me
    who I’m supposed to be.

    1

    The ironies of life are not
    lost on those who iron
    the wrinkles from their day
    night always increases.

    ~ ~ ~

    [I posted the above poems as tweets on Twitter
    one each the last three successive days;
    here, I’ve made a few minor changes.
    This footnote is not a poem.]

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  • Notes on Jessica Sequeira’s “A Furious Oyster”

    20180916_100653I was reading Jessica Sequeira’s debut novel, “A Furious Oyster” (Dostoyevsky Wannabe, 2018), when the 30 August London Review of Books arrived in the day’s mail. A book review should reveal something unexpected, but to do that the book under consideration must be heard in a whisper.

    I turned to the review of Zadie Smith’s latest collection of essays; the LRB reviewer, Thomas Chatterton Williams, quotes from Zadie’s foreword:

    “‘I have no real qualifications to write as I do. Not a philosopher or sociologist, not a real professor of literature or film, not a political scientist, professional music critic or trained journalist … My evidence – such as it is – is almost always intimate. I feel this – do you? I’m struck by this thought – are you?’”

    Later in the review, we might recall that quote and think Zadie is telling us something more, but on the slant, that where she comes from, who she is, who her parents were, the various markings often used for identity, also don’t necessarily serve as “real qualifications”:

    “‘Who am I to speak of this painting? I am a laywoman, a casual appreciator of painting, a dilettante novelist, a non-expert – not to mention a woman of lower birth than the personage here depicted … I am still the type of person who will tend, if I am in a public gallery, to whisper as I stand in front of the art.’”

    That ‘whisper’ is often precisely both unexpected and unheard. The whisper follows no code of style. The whisper comes after the existence of the writer, and describes her essence, her choices, her existential leanings, what she has decided to follow. The whisper is the writer’s breath. The whisper might also be how something is said, and is often paradoxical. The whisper breaks the piece, ruins the lecture, calls from the pit, stops the show. The whisper might be a prayer of praise or a heckle in time with popular opinions.

    There’s something else, too, about the whisper; it’s what most of us do who have no real qualifications. And out of all those whispers (the all but silent blogs, the self-published and distributed broadside, the furious but funny poem in the on-line lit-wall), which ones should we home in on? And why would someone whisper when already no one’s listening?

    Sometimes, of course, the whisper “goes viral,” bounces and echoes off walls, scampers up trees, drifts through subway tunnels. But who or what is the host for that sometimes poison, at times the scent of lavender? And it’s well known, though often not accepted, the virus does not respond to antibiotics, the stubborn use of which weakens the resistance.

    All noise dissipates into whisper, so it should not surprise us that John Cage’s 4’ 33’’ goes briefly viral upon each new discovery. We realize even the Big Bang was a silent singularity. Not only might the world end not with a bang but a whisper, as Eliot almost said in “The Hollow Men,” but the world probably began with a whisper.

    A whisper is not a whimper. A whimper is what comes out of a giant mouth at the end of a rant. A whisper is a careful timing of breath, a largo escape, patient. The whisper goes easy and around.

    “Although that isn’t quite right either: how to describe something like the voice of a person just out of sight?” (A Furious Oyster, 92).

    Hilda Mundy’s voice was far out of sight when Jessica Sequeira brought it back: “I don’t want them to punish me with comments” (Mundy, Pyrotechnics, trans. Sequeira, We Heard You Like Books, 2017, 17). “Them,” the “three-dozen readers laughing at the pages of my failure” (17).

    The whisper never fails: “I began to hear people whispering things to help me, advice. I don’t know whether those voices were really there or not, but they brought me serenity. They helped talk me through my situation, suggesting new paths, pointing out what I needed to do” (A Furious Oyster, 92).

    “I have great respect, in contrast, for the metaphor. This is that” (118). So when we are told Pablo Neruda has ridden a wave of energy from an earthquake or the ocean or some great storm to enter the realm of the living, we believe. “This is my body.” This voice, this word. The metaphor transfigures.

    Sequeira’s “A Furious Oyster” is diary, memoir, investigation, document, thesis, mystery, love story. Let’s “be clear,” there are “other realities” (55). The reality of the metaphor, for example. “Strong wills work even in the shadows of the afterlife” (Mundy, Pyrotechnics, 29). Does every word contain its erotic origin? “How pleasant and suggestive a couple in love is!” (Mundy, 34). “Would I want to live forever in this particular moment, this precise patch of time?…Her kisses alternate, soft and hard. I wrap my arms around her, but already her shoulders feel less firm; our time is nearly up. We must go back now, I know, I know. I know, and how I wish I did not” (A Furious Oyster, 38).

    “A Furious Oyster” is a story of two famous poets in Chile, Pablo Neruda and Pablo de Rokha, literary adversaries, it seems, but both driven by the sufferings and loves of the people of a place, a land, a geography, a structure, to reach out, to reach. The geography of Sequeira’s book reveals her interests in shapes: “Sometimes at night, I dreamed of these theoretical shapes – the rhombuses, the ovals, the diamonds, the ellipses of sub-arguments within the prose. I kept only one notebook, and the diary of my personal life merged smoothly into the most abstract of notes on these Chilean poets, here and gone before my time” (55). “A Furious Oyster” is also the story of a writer researching, composing, working, in a relationship, watching, listening. And it’s the story of a place, Santiago de Chile.

    Sequeira possesses that most unique of minds, the one able ambidextrously to move easily from the hard academic to the soft poet (or is it the soft academic to the hard poet?) within the same shape. The flow of “A Furious Oyster,” its style, is redolent of the Duras of the “Four Novels,” or Lispector’s way of creating mystery while unveiling surprises. I also thought of the modernism of Djuna Barnes and Anais Nin. Jessica Sequeira is a translator, a scholar, a writer. She both understands and comprehends literature. For those of us who can only comprehend, but feel we are indeed also “struck with this thought,” we can only whisper in her shadow that you really should read “A Furious Oyster.”

  • The Bananafish

    A popular fish in some schools the deep
    sea swallower called the bananafish:
    Sansjawdsalumpigus.
    Though it lives on the floor of the aphotic zone,
    it is not bioluminescent; in fact, it’s invisible.
    Rising to the surface with changes of tide, mind,
    and mood, it’s worse by tens than the burbling
    Jabberwock. A bananafish is never caught;
    it slips you, and you are capsized.

    The bananafish sees without eyes things
    that disappear, hears sounds in the depths
    of silence, lives on even when squished
    or peeled or baked into bread or spread
    in undigested seeds. They live in clusters,
    but it only takes one to upend your plans
    for a day, a week, or a lifetime. Nevermind
    the Jabberwock; beware the brilliant
    brainy glare of the bananafish.

    What bites but has no teeth?
    What smells but has no nose?
    What swims without fins,
    goes loopy if left to shelf,
    barmy as the froth of beer?
    Ans: the double-dealing
    bluff bunko, the sly hoax
    of Sansjawdsalumpigus,
    commonly called the bananafish.

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  • Hermit Crabs

    A hermit crab leaves
    home for a new dig
    again and again gig
    after gig sea busker.

    From her mitt he falls
    web of empty shell
    on the beach combs
    a low tide husker.

    In a shell in a cave
    floor of the sea
    hermetically rich
    rarely distressed he.

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  • Too Much of Nothing

    You say too much
    too much you lose
    the way and the
    universe seems
    too much for you.

    Not to make too much
    of this to make much
    of time, of hot,
    of cold, like a year
    in Chicago.

    Say you see
    her eyes move
    like stars way
    too slow and too
    much of nothing.

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  • Words of Love

    Honey,
    I’ve looked everywhere
    for the lost words
    telling your love for me
    in the kitchen compost bin
    in the basement of my heart
    in the attic of my ass (what
    a Fantastic Voyage that was!)
    through the crawl space
    between my breasts
    in the curls of my hair
    in the fishnets between my legs
    between my toes and under my nails
    Alas! nowhere to be found,

    she said, subtle armpits open
    to the heat of the night

    Baby, she went on,
    I can’t love you if I can’t
    find the right words of love
    come back tomorrow or next week
    I’ve got the College Dictionary
    here and the Bible
    and a stack of noir paperbacks
    I’ll find your words of love
    if it’s the last thing I do

    Up my nose, under my eyelids
    around and around my ears
    maybe stuck in earwax I’m thinking
    his words of love where could they be
    could someone have stolen them
    who would want them
    someone else’s words
    could they be buried
    in the cushions of the couch
    lost in the halo of my navel
    tangled in the curlers tossed
    across my dresser in the old
    35 millimeter slide box
    in the china cabinet in the corner
    (which has not been opened
    over a decade of Thanksgivings)
    in the medicine chest upstairs
    in the hall closet
    in the glove box of the Buick
    under the rug
    in the dirty clothes hamper

    Maybe, Sweetie, you told them
    too slant, or to another
    words of love must be true
    if they are to come back to you.

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  • Around the point at high tide

    …picking up somewhere we left off…

    The past is not enough to live on
    to make ends meet.

    what test passed avoids stays
    to wheedle this incessant urge
    past the tinnitus still sings proof
    below like wave bounce go easy
    under the sheer cliff and around
    the mossy point to the bay
    where the dolphins play

    but the past is not enough to live on
    you say and you say things like
    anyway the sea is calm tonight
    and you need to calm down
    and relax we are past all that
    pother the rigmarole accoutrements
    impedimenta odds and ends
    ins and outs no you need
    to cool off i’m sorry if you are
    disappointed but you see
    how tranquil this palaver
    becomes us as we unbend
    and are made drowsy
    not dreary but like
    drizzle after a wave breaks.

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